Dakota

Most disconcerting... My father found my Livejournal... and posted a response to my first entry on my break-up with Jay. I love my father, but I never invited him to my Livejournal for a lot of reasons. I don't censor myself that much on here, and there's not a lot on here that I wouldn't say in person (well, that always varies, doesn't it?)... I know this is online, and I know that I inadvertednly welcome a lot of people that I do and do not know into my ramblings on LJ.

Still... This fills me great disconcertion. I really don't want my father ever reading this. I'm an adult now, and do adult things, and I don't want to feel guilty for doing things that I do and then writing about them here. I'm absolutely horrified that my (formerly?) internet-unaware father has found a portal into something that I've clearly not felt fit to share with him. If I wanted him to know, I'd tell him. And in the case of Jay, I've had a lot happen in the last few days. And for some reason, boyfriends is not a topic I've ever felt comfortable talking about with my father, possibly because he's never acted comfortable hearing about it.

Maybe I do feel more secure writing stuff that people I don't know may read. Why? Probably because I don't know them... On LJ I am me at my most unforgiving; I say "fuck" a lot, bitch about things that bother me and probably shouldn't, and (as early as April of last year) have talked about sex from the cryptic to the blatantly obvious. And suddenly it's like a privacy that I've never considered that I even had on LJ, has been violated. It just bothers me and makes me extremely uncomfortable. I don't like it.

In other news -

I'm a generally unfuckwitted, liberal, disgustingly generous, relatively well adjusted human being!
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