"You couldn't even bring yourself to stay."
Notice
The following remarks were written on days not necessarally in conjunction with this one. How I feel now may not exactly be how I felt then. However, I really wanted to be honest and post what I'd written even if it no longer holds true. That way, at least, it won't seem like some bizarre transition... or at least, less of one.
06.19.02 - Listening to Meredith Brooks, Blurring the Edges CD
Thanks for the feelings of okay again, Genevieve. Last night, or this morning rather, I spent a wonderful six hours on the phone with here. Cost me a not-so-bad $10, but wonderful [insert smiley face here].
Right now, I am just really tired but unable to sleep. And really, I did try this night. Eh, that's okay. Not must else to say. I look forward to good stuff again.
At least it looks near.
[1.36 AM] ("Shatter")
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06.21.02 - Listening to P!nk, Missundaztood CD
I am at the beach presently, along with Andrea. Dad + Michele are off walking. And I'm here, slowly scorching my skin off.
I'm in Wildwood - hardly my favourite beach. I don't know... I used to like beaches a lot more when I was younger. I know I had insecurities when I went to them just as I entered puberty, but honestly I'm not all that asamed of my body. Yet, it took me an hour to even shed a piece of clothing and I'm still wearing a shirt. I look around me, see the yummy and destestable alike... No real pressure, I'm not here to impress girls and the boys I'm not worrying about 'cause I don't expect to hook up with anyone and, well, guys just don't openly stare at one another (I keep to extended glances, personally). So, I'm not sure what's up with me there.
At the moment, I'm also really tired - I wouldn've like to have slept more. Andrea and I did one of our famous AM conversations (til 3.30 this last time).
Water's strangely warm, by the way.
I miss you, Rocky people.
I miss other people too.
"It's been two weeks, two weeks and three days." - Ani, "Superhero".
[2.21 PM] ("Misery", duet with Steven Tyler)
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06.21.02 - Listening to JakeMix2
Burned.
Hurts.
[5.12 PM] ("Superhero", Ani DiFranco)
The following remarks were written on days not necessarally in conjunction with this one. How I feel now may not exactly be how I felt then. However, I really wanted to be honest and post what I'd written even if it no longer holds true. That way, at least, it won't seem like some bizarre transition... or at least, less of one.
06.19.02 - Listening to Meredith Brooks, Blurring the Edges CD
Thanks for the feelings of okay again, Genevieve. Last night, or this morning rather, I spent a wonderful six hours on the phone with here. Cost me a not-so-bad $10, but wonderful [insert smiley face here].
Right now, I am just really tired but unable to sleep. And really, I did try this night. Eh, that's okay. Not must else to say. I look forward to good stuff again.
At least it looks near.
[1.36 AM] ("Shatter")
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06.21.02 - Listening to P!nk, Missundaztood CD
I am at the beach presently, along with Andrea. Dad + Michele are off walking. And I'm here, slowly scorching my skin off.
I'm in Wildwood - hardly my favourite beach. I don't know... I used to like beaches a lot more when I was younger. I know I had insecurities when I went to them just as I entered puberty, but honestly I'm not all that asamed of my body. Yet, it took me an hour to even shed a piece of clothing and I'm still wearing a shirt. I look around me, see the yummy and destestable alike... No real pressure, I'm not here to impress girls and the boys I'm not worrying about 'cause I don't expect to hook up with anyone and, well, guys just don't openly stare at one another (I keep to extended glances, personally). So, I'm not sure what's up with me there.
At the moment, I'm also really tired - I wouldn've like to have slept more. Andrea and I did one of our famous AM conversations (til 3.30 this last time).
Water's strangely warm, by the way.
I miss you, Rocky people.
I miss other people too.
"It's been two weeks, two weeks and three days." - Ani, "Superhero".
[2.21 PM] ("Misery", duet with Steven Tyler)
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06.21.02 - Listening to JakeMix2
Burned.
Hurts.
[5.12 PM] ("Superhero", Ani DiFranco)
Genevieve