Dakota

I don't want to be awake anymore... I just want to sleep through this.

It's just bugging the fuck out of me.

I can't wear a contact in my left eye ('cause I keep putting drops in)... so I'm blurry and uncomfortable and unhappy and fucking yaaaaghhh.

Stye, stye, stye... in my eye, eye, eye.

Want to cut, cut, cut my eye, eye, eye open!

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- Was sick for a few days, but better now. A slight annoyance as opposed to full blown pain in my upper throat and around my tonsils. This is not a new development; I get it every year. Every year I go to a doctor and am told "it's not strep." A lot of water, tea, lozenges, and awful menthol throat spray, and I feel almost to normal.

- Went to the Connexions drag show yesterday. It was a fun show; I was surprised they reprised a few numbers from last year, but they were fine. A couple of the songs were way too long, but the concepts were for the most part pretty incredible. Made me want to appropriate a few ideas for our preshows, although nothing directly.

- I haven't watched any of Veronica Mars, Desperate Housewives, or Grey's Anatomy this year, although most of those series have run at least 3 episodes already. It just didn't work out, taping them. Genevieve and I are watching season 2 of Housewives on DVD during our lunch hour, meaning we get about 3-4 episodes a week. Next up is probably Grey's Anatomy, and that won't be til deep into fall. Meaning it's distinctly probable I won't be seeing any of these shows' third seasons until after they've aired and are released on DVD, next fall. Ah, well. Unless I really manage to take advantage of the repeats and actually keep them on a tape and not fuck it up, I probably won't. I just hope I don't screw up the first 6 weeks of Lost, because Matt and I don't intend on waiting much longer than after those premiere and the show goes on hiatus til February.

- Sleepy. Think I am going to shower and get to bed early. Matthew worked without sleep and has already gone to bed to make up for only a few hours he's lost (he's getting back up at 4 a.m.). I think I'll catch some body heat time.

Genevieve's been sick since about Monday... Matt got sick yesterday, and has been miserable ever since, especially this morning, shivering and uncomfortable.

::looks around:: ::clears throat::

Orange juice it is.

- I feel better now. Still a little sniffly, but all but back to normal.

- Didn't sleep very well. I shouldn't have taken another Aleeve, but since it was a flawless attack on my cold, I didn't want to risk not taking it on the cusp of full recovery.

- On Wednesday, Jamie, Matt, and I went to Connexions for the drag show. Visa did Marilyn Manson's "New Model," and Suzy Q's "Two of Hearts" (which zombies and two pulsing fake hearts!) Other performances included a horrifying "Goldfinger," as well as "Push It" as an ode to childbirth, a funky Lil Kim medley, and an unusual Eartha Kitt disco song.

- Alias season 4 is over and done with. I am left with an open mouth of shock.

- I am Rocky this week. I shouldn't have eaten all that pizza.

Matt got me Aleeve Cold/Sinus medication. It was to help me sleep. It didn't work.

Instead, I woke up and had to keep moving around. I was so awake. I was so alert. I was drifting in and out of sleep countless times from 3 to 7 (when Matt came to bed). Even after, I know I woke up a few times til 9. A few times in 2 hours of time...

I'm still tired, but I feel like that kinda fake-awakeness staying with me. I am artificially awake today.

I was sick today. I slept almost all of the day, and only officially "called in" at 12. I woke up at 9. I was a bit of a mess, and laid down next to 40 on the couch. I woke up 12:15. I went to wake Matt up, not certain when I supposed to wake him up (come to think of it, he never did leave me a note telling me when I was supposed to).

He got up, saw me, and told me to go back to sleep. So I did, until about 3:30 when the phone rang and he was out. I could barely talk. Yeekes.

I showered, meandered miserably downstairs, looked up some e-mails, and then Matt and I went up to see Alias. Two episodes of season 4 left. ( cut for the sake of Danielle, and perhaps others )

Matt, Jamie, and I are going to Connexions, tonight for their drag show. Should be fun, as it has been the two times I've gone before.

Last night, Genevieve, Danielle, and Gail went to see Rent, which was splendid. It was a surprise birthday gift for Gail. We had a late lunch first, with Michael, at the Macaroni Grill, where we drew on the paper table cloths (as we are encouraged to do, apparently). I made interpretations of Biblical stories with crayons.

We then went on a very slow Express train to Penn Station and walked to the Nederlander Theatre. It was so crowded. The audience snaked out the door, down two corners of the building.

The show was quite, quite good. We saw a few understudies, such as Haven Burton, who was filling in for Maureen. She was quite, quite good. She handled herself very well. Will Chase had the voice of a stronger RIchard Marx, and blew "One Song, Glory" and "What You Own" away.

We also saw Frenchie Davis, who I've heard great things about. She was ok. I don't get the huge fuss, but she was good. D'Monroe was awful as Benny. He oversang the whole show (his worst offense being "Rent" itself). Yeech. Justin Johnson (Angel) and Destan Owens (Collins) were great, together and apart. Kenna J. Ramsey (Joanne) was also excellent. She underplayed her part for "Rent," "Tango: Maureen," and "We're Okay," and she didn't sing the soloist part in "Seasons of Love" (because Frenchie was there), so I thought she was great, but didn't expect the powerhouse of "Take Me or Leave Me." Excellent.

They were all blown away by Antonique Smith, who played Mimi. She was phenomenal-- my favorite stage Mimi that I've seen yet. Completely blew Karmine Alers and Loraine Velez away. Her version of "Out Tonight" made me immediately wish I had a recording of her. "Goodbye, Love," "Another Day," "Without You," and "Light My Candle" were all great as well.

Alright; we're gonna be going in about an hour, so I have go.

::blows nose::

Around 5 am (long after the alcohol should've disappeared from my system), this morning, I got very violently (but briefly) sick. Severe stomach cramps, and then a sudden jaunt to the bathroom to throw up. It gave a terrible, terrible head rush that hurt quite a lot.

Of course, 5 minutes later, I was fine. There was nothing left, I guess, to make me still feel bad.

While Matt was quick to point out the drinks I had, I really think that 5 hours would've been long enough to have it not count.

I was sick for most of the latter-half of the week. My yearly throat attack. The kind where everyone says it's strep except the doctor. However, I muddled through pretty well, despite a pretty dismal few days. I am no longer walking around in a dazed fog, or sweating and shivering in-between hours of feverish sleep.

Needless to say, it sucked. But I'm all but fully recovered. I think most of the throat irritation now is simply caused by hacking. Yaay! Super-fun.

I wanted to mostly post so I didn't forget that on Wednesday, I went to Connextions with Jamie and met up with jamie'sKristen there. We saw Visa's show, but she was going under a second alias, Dinah Club. But I mainly know him/her as Visa, and I have no idea what his real name is. He looked like Auntie Mame! Dinah Club (or Klub, or Klubb, or Clubb, or whatever) is a much older Jewish woman, and started the show with a geriatric "Hung Up" (for about a minute of it). After a stunned and somewhat uncertain response from the crowd, she cut the music and went into a better fitting "When You're Good to Mama." I knew as much as she did that as a drag queen, she had a duty to do the latest Madonna song in her monthly set. They did end up doing the full version (or close to it) as an encore, with the entire crew.

The best performances of the night were that by Anastasia (who was Poison Ivy and the shiny Freddy Krueger at the last show) who did "Mein Herr" and another song that slips my mind but I remember as wonderful. Sharon Needles did Garbage's "As Heaven is Wide" and another song I didn't actually know but had a geisha theme. Sharon seems a little intense for the otherwise lite-as-air show, but she's awesome. There was another who did "Erotica," (I think the Jeep mix), which was amusing 'cause it's all dominant and kneel-to-me-bitch and yet she had a leash on. The Samarha from last time did "Shy" from Once Upon a Mattress, which was adorable! Nobody else was really bad, either. It was very entertaining. Don't know if the guy who did "Erotica" was the same person as Elphaba... if he wasn't, then Elphaba wasn't there.

Ok--gotta get off to the show now.

Fun fact for the day: I am eating my first Dorito today in a very long time. They're baked. It's been nearly 3 years since I've had Doritos. I was dating Jay at the time. He was sick with mono. Or something. He made Danielle and Genevieve sick. This was like January 2nd. Danielle threw up in his car, and I kept her at my house. She got me sick in turn.

I didn't know I was sick until I had a bag of Doritos and was unable to keep it in my stomach. I ate an entire bag. I deserved it.

Coincidentally (maybe), one of the last two conversations or so I had with Jay was about how I was sick. he was completely unapologetic (perhaps because he was still sick and had a car that smelled like vomit). We broke up like 2 weeks later.

So I swore off Doritos. I used to love them. Them coming through my nose made me stop loving them.

And then I started dating Matt. In comparison, the first time I got sick even in the presence of Matt (when I got my wisdom teeth removed and I reacted badly to the codeine), he took me to his house and took care of me.

I just thought it was interesting is all. I don't know what exactly made me feel like picking up a 25¢ bag at the deli next store for 75¢. They're ok.

Either I have a sudden fever-related allergy to blueberries from nowhere, or I am sick.

your silence is giving me too much hope."

I have a massive headache right now... I woke up a few times during the night... Well, I did go to bed around 3... It was intended as a nap, that'd I wake up around six at the latest and I'd get food, etc. Didn't happen. I woke up a bit after nine. And then I let Max outside, came back in, went back to sleep. Around one I woke up again, and after just laying in bed trying to fall asleep, I suddenly had this pain the back of my skull... and I'm not one for headaches; I just don't get them that frequently.

It figures after yesterday and me telling Genevieve that I've never experienced a migraine. I still don't think I have, but this is plenty... It feels all sinus-y... but... in the back... of my head... Yeah...

Besides this, I'm not up to anything... I'm sorry that Chris has to leave his house, but I've yet to really form an opinion on it... I've never heard stories from any side that really matched up with one another, so all I can hope for is the best - whatever that may end up to be.

I think the Advil is taking effect... I wish I was still sleeping.